The princess back in Wonderland

These days, the princess feels like she is Alice back in WOnderland again (where everything seemed so similar as if a recurring dream but never knowing what to make of it).

Three months into the new year and yet it seems that 2009 had never really left; living the past in the present on all front. Every morning, every moment of 2010 just reminds me of 2009.

Sometimes, the princess cant help but wonder at times "hey.. wait a minute.... this feels like ..... hmmmm"

Yet, the princess cant really put a finger to this Deja Vu feeling.

Neither a good nor bad feeling, just a feeling of being stuck in a moment for eternity - a sense of loss that comes with too much familiarity.

The princess keep asking herself these days "Where do i go from here? I guess you can never move forward without knowing where to go to"

Perhaps, in true ALice in Wonderland fashion, the question that the princess should be asking is "Have i gone crazy?"

To which, some kind soul, hopefully, is gonna reply "Yes, you have gone totally bonkers.... but you know, the most brillant and beautiful and kind people i've known are crazy as well".

But knowing the friends that the princess have.... they are more likely than not to throw a bucket full of cold reality and call the princess "absolutely delusional"

Delusional or an absolutely beautiful and kind princess or not, like ALice, the princess is determined to wake up every morning believing that 6 impossible things will happen to me (i.e. like striking lottery, not needing to work, finding a perfect prince, strictly following the principles of a self-help book and finding that it works, stopping at 1 glass of alcohol in the clubs and, of course, slaying a dragon.)

The princess simply just hope to come out of my own wonderland soon and having an answer to where i would like to go in life and the resolve to do it.

And also, hopefully, like Alice, the princess can master that crisp british accent so that i can say "Yes, i would like to have a little of that absolutely beautiful scone please" as i proceed to my beautiful sunday brunch today with the nagging thought of whether i will ever climb out of the rabbit hole and see the light.